| Fell &learnt. |
[Mar. 26th, 2011|03:27 pm] |
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Hi, my last post was 1st of march and 8days later i landed myself in hospital.
So yeah i was veryvery sick, i couldnt speak, suffering from headache and i slept all day long. My mum cant take it anymore and find that something is wrong w/ me. So yeah we went KK Hospital, the doctor spoke to me and all i did was crying non-stop. Thereafter, they sent me to TAN TOCK SENG.
So i stayed in that hospital for 9days. I guess it's really right when ppl says everything happens for a reason. This 9days, i gained alot, alot of love, care and concern.
First of all, im thankful to my mother for staying with me for that 9days, 24hourly.
Secondly, all my beloved friends &teammates came to see me. I can see how worried their face were. People like Wong Shuqing finally for once look sooooo angelic and sweet, cares for me and still accompanied me to chat on phone. Aww. People like Yeohuiyee who always look so feeling-less actually bought TEXAS CHICKEN for me to eat.Although she bought breast meat for me to eat but still thankyou!^^
Not to forget many of Tekkos for coming to see me, chat w/ me and asking how im followed by JR-Kias, my beloved seniors and all. It's like reunion, i've seen so many of my loved ones and those that i've missed alot yet didnt have the time to meetup. Thankful, thakful for the fruits from Tekkos, balloons and doraemon JR-Kias got for me, thankful for the teddybear kennysim and larrylow got for me :)
Thirdly, i learnt to see things from another angle. I really learnt, hey people out there, health is really wealth. I would rather not have a billion dollars and have a healthy body. It really sucks to have needle poking you everyday, to take your blood for bloodtest or to allow anti-biotics to flow into your body. It really sucks and till now those veins are still as swollen as ever. Because im still young and i hardly does house chores, all the nurses and doctor had a hard time finding my vein and kept poking the wrong place!
After this stay in hospital, im glad. Im glad im not dead yet. Im glad i've sucha a good parents. Im glad i've awesome friends all around me. Im glad i still have chance to play my dreams and strive for my goals. Life aint that bad afterall :) &It's really scary when simple things like after-school have lunch with your friends or buying the ice-cream outside your school, playing basketball with your teammates, kbox w/ the usual fews, suddenly seem so impossible and you just feel like you're stuck in that damn hospital. That feeling really sucks and scares me.
Ever since then, i learnt to cherish life even more, cherish the people around me more. Spread the love people! Live to love, we should all make one another happy(: ! |
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[Feb. 10th, 2011|12:27 am] |
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Today, we lost.
Last quarter as we're chasing up i tell myself, i dont want to lose, i will fight for every single ball. I did. But still we lost. Nvm i've done my best but wait no, if i cherish that 2penalty maybe it would be another ending?
I always cant score for penalty shots. I questioned myself why didnt i cherish but i came out with no answers. Regrets filled my mind. I cant do anything except trng harder.
A challenge i made for myself to run everyday frm tmrw onwards no matter how busy im and shoot penalty shots after running. Time to pump out. Mum told me, no one will success till they fall because failure means you're a step nearer to victory.
Now, i just wanna fall on my bed and sleep. Gdnight people :) |
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[Feb. 9th, 2011|12:15 am] |
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Workload doubled, stress doubled. School life is getting more and more busy, asp(s) are starting very soon. Tournament had also started. We hasn't been playing up to standard, played our worst in the first match. Despite those words didnt came towards me harsh but did on my team mates. That got me to learn my lesson, i asked myself if i've done my best and i realised, i really wish i could do better.
This gave me a unneccessary stress for tmrw's crucial games. Overwhelmed with fatigue, eyes could open less than 2cm, ankle kneecap hurting badly. I dont know how to face tmrw but i know i want to win, WE WANT TO WIN. I cant feel so low, i needa pull the team's morale up.
I wanna pull through such torment, so im turning in now. Gdnight people.
P/s i super dislike to not hand up homework, the speechless reaction towards my teacher, i dont like. Have i grown up? To be more responsible? Perhaps so. I can see myself changing, for the better. |
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[Feb. 3rd, 2011|07:59 pm] |
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Random post because im rather bored at m'sia nowzzz.
okeh idk what to post alrdy zzz. I want watch THE GREEN HORNET W/ cliques !!!!
k bye! HAHA. m'sia life super relaxing lehh everyday sleep eat nap eat and sleeep! hehehe. |
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[Jan. 4th, 2011|01:03 am] |
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Its going 1am already! But im still not asleep. alright short post, school gonna starts tmrw.
Although its a dread to have lessons when its early morning 7am plus but well somehow maybe its better to be into this more routined and scheduled life at least im slimmer with this kinda life. HAHA.
Promise myself that im gonna work hard. New year resolution is to work out more and eat less! Champion and 12pts. JUST THIS THREE IM GONNA GET IT!! ^^
Although im already sec4 but as usual IM LOOKING FORWARD TO SCHOOL. HAHA i still remember when im young i used to insomnia for the whole night and looking forward to board the school bus and there i goes non-stop chatting with them on the bus during the first day of school. &oh i miss the past when i used to excel so well in work, when im less lousy &more capable. What happen to me? I guess its all about discipline. Im just too lazy &since i know where the problem lies, i shall do something about it. Because idw to let myself down, idw to let my mum down, let my friends down who've been encouraging me from the start of the race. <3
Throw away the unpleasant past &vengence; fly on my own, soar up to the sky calls freedom. |
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[Dec. 4th, 2010|04:25 am] |
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海变成陆地
快乐的能变成悲剧
那么爱 会不会变成了麻痹
沙变成天梯
丑陋的能变成美丽
那么你 会不会变成我的仇敌
我不是挑剔
可怕的变局
随时都在背后偷袭
时间会把我把你
都变成了灰烬
从勇气 变距离
没有人能够保证
永远在一起
时间会把我把你
都变成了回忆
那时候 有没有
一个不会为时间
而变化的你
分开追逐著相聚
辛酸渴望著甜蜜
我们都是一样
穷得只剩下空虚
我买不起
我不确定
绝望谷底有没有奇迹
时间会把我把你都变成了灰烬
从勇气 变距离
不变的幸福
只是 一种距离
时间会把我把你都变成了回忆
那时候 有没有
一个是你爱我我爱你最完美的结局
还是
我变成了你最想忘记的回忆
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[Nov. 27th, 2010|06:43 pm] |
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Do ever have this urge to really see this someone and all you wna do is jump on them, give them a tight hug saying "aww i miss you so much" ? But when you really met he/she, you always ended up saying hi and walk-away.
Haizzz, nth stays permanent. Its funny how things we always do in e past becomes so hard for us to do now, such lil things like hugs.
不要驚動愛情，要等對方情願。這是上帝對我們的態度，等我們情願回到他的懷抱，也是我們在愛的關係中需要學習的，耐心等候。 |
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[Oct. 14th, 2010|03:12 pm] |
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Perhaps this is better for there wont be an ending because i still couldnt make up my mind.
& Exams are coming to an end, i just bloody gonna flunk my physics , Amaths and emaths for sure like seriously. So damn fucking disappointed w/ myself. Hai. But i know our aim is not EOY is Os. Im so gonna put in XTRA effort during the holidays to brush up my A & Emaths.I want an B3/B4 for E or Amaths. PLEASE !! T.T
Holiday to-do-list :
CANNOT SLEEP DURING BRIDGING LESSONS, DIE ALSO CANNOT CANNOT CANNOT !!!!!
MANAGE TIME WELL. PLAY HARD ; STUDY HARD(:
MAHJONG TILL SIAO.
OUTING(s)
PLAY BBALL LIKE MAD.
TUITION ~.~
CLEAR ALL SEC 3s Science(s) Topics by finishing TYS.
Do alot of practices on Amaths & Emaths on TYS .
I know A1 are hard to come by , to me my only worries now are Physics. Because for my maths , i trust my tuition teacher will be able to pull me up. At least a B4. I've to rely on myself to be hardworking , because as everyday passes, im a day nearer to Os. You can say im kiasu ,but sorry i've my aims &im 100x ambitious. Everyone lead a different life afterall but there are many factors affects us to be who we're in the future.So yeah , for me being this way is caused by the environment im living in . I dont think is not good anyway is good for people to dream big isnt it ?
Dont have to be a bloody 9pointer, i just want 12points. Thats happy enough for me(: |
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[Apr. 14th, 2010|11:50 pm] |
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Yeah so i choose to unlock this livejournal of mine and stop it from rotting (:
Hmm , some of e post can be locked here so is more private which is why i like about it
Had my napfa today and im not really satisfied with my timing but neither am i sad , juz average , at least i did my best (:
Sometimes i feel like giving up but e thought of mum gives me e motivation to continue. I had juz lived thru 10years plus of my life whereas someone who lived thru 50years plus of life is still fighting hard for me , what rights do i've t give up ? (: ILOVEMUMMY ! 世上的妈妈都是伟大的！
Alright , ciaos. |
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[Nov. 2nd, 2009|12:43 am] |
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HAHA , birthday birthday and is now over ! YAAY (;
Hmm , though i didnt had my fav sakae sushi , my long craved movie , tanktop from NUM , crumpler bag , canvas shoe but well all this doesnt matter cos i will get it soon coscoscos i will get to work soon hehe.
still i enjoyed my day today , with baoyi , michelle , sq , vian , joyce , liying , huiyee .
let me repeat again , MICHELLE YOU'RE SO DAMN DARK NOW ! hahahahahaah .
okay la thats all im having insomnia now la tmrw need wake at 7am for training damn -,-
i feel so bloated now cos of all the cakes i eaten , all those creams = fats OMG .
nvm i'll burn them down tmrw (; hahaha.
i wait , waiting , waited but still nth .
over means over , when the clock strikes 12 , the chance is missed .
but it doesnt matters to me anymore (;
still i wna thank those who wished me and gave me presents thanks !!
HAHA i like the doraemon given by tms & the eeyore from wongbaoyi &&& the small tiny weeny version of doraemon from joyceh ,
heehehehehehehehehehe ! lovelovelove (;
nights ppl ;D |
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